Im now non insured !!! AGAIN !!!!

Hi there everyone I just had to come here and raise cane or is it hell ? Anyways I am now no longer insured again through my husbands work policy , they were not aware that I was an insulin dependant diabetic . What ? why would I be buying insulin and you are paying for it then ? LOL !!! The woman I talked to was about as helpful as a piece of paper , seriously . She says she does not understand how the corporate big wigs could see the paperwork and still not know that I was a type 1 . All the endo bills ? I have made several calls these last two days and am still no where. My husband says just give up we will find a way to make it work like we did before . I dont see how but that is my husband the ever present optimist . LoL . My bgs have skyrocketed the last two days due to stress. I also notice that when the weather turns cold the bgs go crazy ? Omg !!! I just realized I sound like a basket case LOL !!! Im done ranting I promise .

It is one of those days !!

Have you ever had one of those days where you just have no gumption to do anything remotely close to moving out of a certain chair or just ho hum attitude ? Well my friends this is one of those days for me and I just am so far from caring right now it is not even funny . The sky is gray and the weatherman is calling for snow flurries tommorow . Yes thats right I typed snow flurries , I mean seriously snow flurries this early oh great I predict blizzard conditions for christmas folks and my feet and bones are calling me LOL !!!!

What has america become ?

What has America become ?
Editor ,
Has America become the land of the special interest and home of the double standard ?
Let us see : If we lie to the Congress , it 's a felony and if the congress lies to us its just
politics ; if we dislike a black person , we're racist and if a black dislikes whites its their 1st
amendment right ; the government spends millions to rehabilitate criminals and they do almost
nothing for the victims : in public schools you can teach homosexuality is Ok , but you had
better not use the word God in the process , you can kill an unborn child , but it is wrong to
execute a mass murderer, we dont burn books in America , we now re write them ; we got rid
of the communist and socialist threat by renaming them progressives ; we are unable to close
our border with Mexico but have no problem protecting the 38th parallel in Korea ; if you protest
against President Obama's policies you are a terrorist, but if you burned an American flag or
George Bush in effigy it was your first amendment right . You can have pornography on TV or
the internet , but you better not put a nativity scence in a public park during Christmas ; we have
eliminated all criminals in America , they are now called sick people ; we can use a human fetus
for medical research but it is wrong to use an animal . We take money from those who work hard
for it and give it to those who don't want to work ; we all support the Constitution , but only when
it supports our political ideology ; we still have freedom of speech but only if we are being politically
correct ; parenting has been replaced with Ritalin and video games ; the land of opportunity is now
the land of hand outs ;the similarity between Hurricane Katrina and the gulf oil spill is that neither
president did anything to help .
And how do we handle a major crisis today ? the government appoints a commitee to determine
who's at fault then threatens them , passes a law , raises our taxes ; tells us the problem is solved
so they can get back to their re election campaign .
What has happened to the land of the free and the home of the brave ?
This was a letter to the editor and it was written by Ken Huber -Tawas City

what subjects do you avoid in letters to friends and family ?

Me I guess I avoid mentioning religion or politics to people who are my pen pals and I really dont know that well . However people that I do know well I try and write cheerful and uplifting letters and certainly not ones that I am guessing will offend .However the mere mention of religion to some people gets them in an upraoar and why Im not sure other than they seem to think that person writing said letter is trying to stir something in them for a debate . Now as for me I try not to dabble in the debate of most things and would probably say something to the effect of well that is debatable and leave it at that .Im really sorry I will finish this blog later . I m headed to bed because I dont feel well today . Have a great and wonderful wknd and day folks .

wow how do some of us get it so easily and others not so much

Wow I just have been at this a long time and I still dont have it down pat and honestly I dont think I ever will and maybe we are not supposed to ? is that the deal ? we are supposed to be able to figure the carb ration = insulin thing . I seriously have been at this a long time and it gets harder and harder all the time . I go high at night and then low low low in the morning and traveling is a real b*%tch sometimes . I hate having to check blood sugars 10+ times a trip and frankly folks it really smells to high heaven . why cant we just really get a cure ? oh my goodness that is it the fda does not want us to have a cure because the diabetes business is a big one !!! Oh well my freaking rant for the day . Have a great one ...

Can someone tell me how we find a balance ?

Can someone tell me how we find a balance in all this madness . I just got reminded that there was a walk here this am but could not make it . Not only was I not feeling good but hubby had to work so we could not make it down for the walk . maybe next year who knows right ? Man I'm bummed that I missed the walk that stinks really bad and I hate hubby has to work on saturday . oh well welcome to my world right ? the weather is chilly and it is starting to rain . great just a lovely all around saturday . Take care all and have a great day .

Well another trip to the grocery store

You know I really hate the grocery store I really do . I know some of you out there probably hate it as well especially all of the gf people . gf stands for gluten free . At one time when my blood sugar was hitting the roof the drs bright idea and answer to this was oh let us put you
on a gluten free diet . And let me tell you the grocery store becomes a night mare with gf . I find it is also a nightmare when you have diabetes as well . When I was out and about and used to eat out with friends , they would always say hey you cant eat that or this and frankly it used to bug me alot . I often declined invites to dinner , picnics and other family outings because of it . Now mind you the grocery store is something I often think of with dred . Dont get me wrong I love to smell food cooking just have to remember that in the back of my head that I am always a diabetic . Does that mean it defines me ? No not at all . It is just always in the back of my head . Well take care everyone and see ya soon .

Why in this day and age are we still dealing with issues

Why oh why in this day and age are we still dealing with issues concerning our diabetes , insurance coverage and supplies ? For Gods sake this is the year 2010 going into 2011 and we are still dealing with out of date insurance companies who are definately behind the times where diabetes is concerned . Everytime I talk to someone it is always "well our insurance did not cover this or our insurance company denied us this " why oh why and this national health care coverage let me tell you folks , yeah we are going to have to pay it but some like me might be living in our car to pay it . Some of us just wont be able to do it . And if you are like me my husbands insurance coverage will not cover hardly anything but we will be paying premiums like it covers everything . You all should read about this national health care plan . It will put families who are already financially strapped , into living in their cars , gutters and over crowded shelters . I definately know we need something but we dont need this plan that Obama has crafted . Also alot of companies will say that they cannot afford to carry it and it will put alot of companys out of business , creating more jobless sittuations . It is not a good idea at all . Oh well let me get off my soapbox take care everyone .

wow really rainy and cold here today

Wow now I am really wondering if this is the start of winter here because the rain started and the high for today was 68 degrees so hopefully maybe the winter is going to finally start coming in boy I sure hope so cause Im tired of the heat . I have been so behind on blogging it is not even funny LOL !!! I just saw everybodys life went on while I was busy making sure things got done in other areas of my life and as a result my blogging life went in the toliet oh well that is how things happen I guess . Oh well I see alot of you went on your walks this last past wk or wknd and that is just awesome and good to know . Oh well I hope to hear from all of you soon .

I honestly have been trying to catch up

I have had quite a few busy days and am trying to play catch up and also trying to catch up on my book reading too and also with my bible studying . Im trying to find time to meditate and pray for everyone on my prayer list . I m so glad for prayer partners because I would be so lost without them and I need prayer partners , I really do . I have also slacked on church attendance as well and Im sure God is not too happy about that either . I really do try to make time for it . I really really do .well that is all for today folks . I will leave you with that .

Things are better

Im so at peace now since staying in my bible and reading it everyday and I let God tell me what I should read each day since he is my guide . I get lead by prayer and asking God what he would like for me to read each day . I think that is very important that you let God choose since he knows your heart , your mind and your troubles and what makes your heart heavy with worry . it took me a long time to understand that God answers prayer in his time and not yours . It took me forever to understand that . I have not found a good home church here and so I have a prayer study in my home every sunday and wed night . I stay in my bible and I am comfortable with that . Oh well I will leave you all with that .

September 11,2001

Just a remembrance for 9/11. Thank you and you will never be forgotten .

fall is upon us

Well I noticed today the leaves are changing and wow what awesome colors we are going to have in a month or two and then I guess we will be bombared with snow and ice and yes old man winter will be knocking at the door . I love it when I can open the windows and let some fresh air inside and it is so nice and it smells so good . I guess you could say that my favorite time of the year is fall because of the nice cool crisp air and the clean smell . Now I love snow too dont get me wrong but when there is ice up under that snow , that is where I have a problem . As to quote someone else "houston we have a problem " . Yes folks I have slipped on ice more times than I care to remember and it aint funny . Now if we can get through this winter season without ice storms or ice up under the snow then I will be one happy woman . Take care everyone and have a blessed day .

Im in so much better spirits these days

Im in such better spirits since all the prayers for me . Also I am sad about one thing though , I have lost my bible and Im in such sorrow about that . I think it got left somewhere thems the breaks I guess . I have been so scatter brained lately there is no telling where I left it . Im just sad about it but this too shall pass . I will be alright praise God . I just feel renewed today and hope to stay like this for ever if not forever then for a while .I do thank you all for your prayers . God bless you all .

Oh my gosh I dont know what to say

Hey there my faithful readers , I was in the target store yesterday and I think my heart almost broke for this elderly woman . She was with her daughter and she was checking out and she was twenty cents short for her purchase and she was digging in her purse and then her grown daughter yells "Well come on mom I dont have all day !!" then the daughter snatches twenty cents out of her own purse and proceeds to tell her mother right there in front of everyone , "You are the brokest woman I know ". I was in shock and the woman behind me says "see that is what happens when you dont spank them "! I was floored by both of these women and my heart went out to the elderly woman .I thought that is terible and I thought that it was some kind of 20/20 thing what would you do ? I kept looking around cause I told my husband that would be my luck someone would tick me off and I would show butt on national tv . LOL !!! Oh well what do you think you would do ? would you say something ? would you pass her a dirty look ? I guess Im conducting my own what would you do expieriment. LOL !!!

My goodness this heat is horrible

The heat is horrible I have never seen it this bad . I have never seen 90s clear into September here or in Missouri where I was raised . yeah Florida I can understand having bad heat and also texas and most places south but we here in the midwest and the north have been having heat waves like crazy . The weather man was talking about a cool down and their idea of a cool down is in the 80s . Im still praying and working on our family issues that will be solved here soon , I hope anyway of course . But just like I told my husband last night whatever happens , happens and you cannot change it I just know God will find a way . Im handing it all over to him and let him deal with it .

The peace in my heart .

Well I have a little peace in my heart right now but I fear the big one is getting ready to downfall on us . Dont know why but just feel like the big bad wolf is at the door and hungry you know. Im giving it to God and let him handle it cause I know I cant handle it .

Well still praying and asking for peace

Well I am still praying and asking for some peace from God . Im just not feeling any better I guess I am just wanting to quit being sad and depressed . I really need some peace but I worry all the time about stuff and husbands job is not helping . They are working him to death and this last place he worked did the same thing and then they let him go so there has been some issues where he works too . Like I always tell him what does not kill us makes us stronger . I am looking forward to fall but not winter . I really like the idea of the leaves changing . Oh well I will look to God every day and pray for his peace over my heart and me and my loved ones . I wish all of you a blessed day and a blessed wknd and a blessed week next week .

Prayer is important

Im facing a lot of issues these days and if it is not one thing it is another . Im really going through some tough issues none of which I will go into on here but really need prayer cause it seems as though the devil is after me . I got alot of issues like I said that I am dealing with . I really need some heavy duty prayer , I have been praying and bugging the Lord I am sure with alot of needs and needing answers and I know I know I am impatient when it comes to wanting answers . I m so impatient I know . I try really hard I do , I do .Sometimes I just want to scream really loud and pull my hair out LOL !!!

I still need prayers for me and my family

We are struggling like everyone else these days and my family has been on my mind lately and Im just so heart broken about alot that has been going on . It really stinks that I cannot be closer to help my family and my husband and I are struggling with this and we are trying to come to some sort of decision but I am praying over it and I hope the Lord will show me the way to go and lead me where he wants me . I look at it this way if God wants me in a certain place then that is where he will put me and I need to leave it in Gods hands . Well Im praying for some direction in that category and just lift me up in prayer please . Thanks everyone .

calling all you wonderful d peeps !!!

Head on over to candyhearts blog and see the wunderful prize pack she has available !!! This girl Wendy is just awesome and she is outta dis world for things and she is just about one of the best people I know and that she is a d mom and still holds it all together !!! she is always there when you need her and I hope you all will head on over and see what she and her family are up to .

Sure could use some prayers these days

We have been going through some issues here at the house and other places and we need some prayers cause Im tired of worrying about it and god will take care of it . I just have to remember that God answers prayer in his time not ours and this is the hardest thing I have to remember . I just could use some extra help in the prayer department . I have several things I am struggling with and dont really know how to handle them other than hand them to God . Some prayers have already been answered and I am so grateful for that . But there is nothing God cant do . So Im hoping he takes it on because I am tired . Oh well stay well and take care everyone .

okay if everyone comes through

Okay if everyone comes through we have enough girls clothes . I am now working on the 2 month old clothes . The daddy of the kids is really stressed and he does not know how he is going to keep a roof over their heads much less clothes . So she and I would like to take the stress off of him for a little while . The daddy has been out of work for about a year and he has had to move in with mama but step daddy wants rent from him . Which is whole other matter in my opinion so anyways the grand ma is very stressed and Im trying to help . So now from this point we are working on boys clothes so I will keep working at trying to find some and I hope someone knows of someone who has boys clothes . I m praying to God about everything lately . My stomach has been in knots cause I have the feeling that something really bad is going to happen but I have given it to God so he can take direction and I hope show me a way . Oh well enough for today and take care all .

Im still need help with the baby clothes

I just thought I would let everyone know that wendy has graciously stepped forward and offered her girls clothes for my collection I am taking up . In case you missed the other post I am collecting up 2t girls clothes and 2 month old boys clothes for a friends grand children that are in desperate need and she (the grandmom ) and i hunted all over good will and nothing . So again I am putting the call out for all of you who might have these clothes just hanging around you can send them to me I will wash , and sort them and send them on their way . I m trying so hard to do this and so is my friend . I feel like I have something to look forward to . If you need an address please just leave a comment and I will get back with you all thanks again .

calling all moms out there

Hey guys I am in search of infant boys clothes and girls 2t clothes . These will go to a dear friend who is in need of clothes for her grandchildren . She and I both have looked at goodwill and nothing and we have put out feelers everywhere so I thought I would put a shout out on my blog and see if my good ole blogger friends would come through for me . If you know of such items leave a comment and I will come back and email you with the details . Im thinking of just having them all sent here to me and go through them wash them and pack them up and send on to them . also i am collecting diaper coupons for them as well . We have put feelers out all over the place . Thanks so much and I feel like for once I have a purpose now . :0 !!!

Can someone please help me ?

I must be the most computer illiterate person in america . can someone please tell me how to link ? I dont know how to link my blog to another website or website to website does that make sense ? Oh please can someone help me . Im so goofy . egads I really do feel like the biggest dummy in america sometimes .

i forgot something here it is

www.laurenshope.com. I hope you can click on this link and it will come through .

Found an awesome site

There is a site called laurens hope and it sells bracelets especially for medical conditions . You all should take a look . Wendy over at candy hearts let me in on this awesome site . Thanks Wendy .

Hi all yes I am still alive

Hi all Yes I am still alive and just have not had anything at all to blog about and really have not read any really spectacular books either . The heat is horrible and I heard some states are starting school this week . I cant believe that in this heat that they would want kids out in it .I think that starts to a dangerous path . Children and adults have to be careful especially ones with chronic illnesses . I m sorry but in this case I do believe I would home school and then protest the school board sending our children into this heat and risking their safety and their health . I dont care how much water you drink this heat can kill in minutes according to most doctors I have been listening to on the news . Uh oh sounds like I am on my soap box again LOL !!! Okay enough just meant to let you all know I was still alive and well . Take care all .

Okay back on my soapbox

Lauras blog really got to me and so did Joannes . I am so tired of all of us having to walk or do bake sales or have garage sales or raise money the old fashioned way when our government seems to find the money to build a new bomb or fund a stupid project somewhere in the world , but yet cannot seem to justify funding research for cures ? why is that ? Just one day I would love to see our government hold a bake sale to buy a bomb , to have a garage sale to fund congress , set up a lemonade stand to fund a stupid project somewhere in the world . It is simple folks our government is more interested in building bombs than finding cures for illnesses. I for one am sick of living with a disease that im sure somewhere in the world there is a cure . I m tired of seeing little 2 and 3 yr olds walking around wearing pumps and giving themselves shots to keep their selves alive . Im so sick of it and yes Laura and Joanne you are so right . We have to use websites to raise money and it is such bs . Okay that is my gripe for today .As usual be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

okay okay I will try

Well hello everyone and Hope you day has been a good one and we woke up to rain this morning and i was hoping to go feed the ducks and the swans and the geese . This has been a really hard day and lately I have not had much to blog about . Still dont really but I do enjoy reading your blogs and keeping up with you guys . Well Like i said there is not much to blog about and maybe just maybe tommorow I can find something interesting to blog about . Ugh Im so boring LOL !!!
Well as always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

a really busy day

I have had such a busy day and we are worn out and dont really have much to blog about other than I am so glad to be home and resting and finishing up what was a really busy day . I also am kind of disheartened because I found out one of my pen pals is traveling the country soon she leaves sunday and I probably wont hear from her again until sept when she returns home after her cross country trip .It is sad to hear that friends are going on an extended trip and then you wont hear from them for awhile . Oh well I guess I will have to deal with it anyways . I hope you all are well and I shall say adieu for now and will be back soon and blog and vent , pi** , bi*ch and moan some more . As always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider.

Talk about mail art

Well I had been having a bad day and then I found this wonderful example of mail art in my mail box and I mean man oh man . I love this and I am saving it . Actually I save every letter I get from my pen pals . Yeah I have two boxes full of saved letters . I know my hubby would probably say this is clutter but hey I prefer the term mail art much better . So what say all of you ?

Im bouncing off the walls

I dont know what the heck is going on with me cause my bgs are bouncing off the walls and Im not sleeping good at all and Im wore out all the time . I think the heat might have something to do with it . And then there is the counting carbs and checking and re checking and stocking and re stocking of supplies and finding out whoa dont have something . Then you have to deal with some ass hole pharmacy clerk who shakes their head a hundred times when you tell them you dont have insurance . Yeah I know and I dont need your attitude guy or girl . Talk to our government who does not want any of us sick people around . Talk to the fda who wants our medications to be so costly that they want to send us into back alleys to buy it . I m really tired of having to pay so much for an illness I did not contribute to or cause in any way . well be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Okay after reading some blogs I need to blow my top

Okay after reading certain blogs on here I feel the need to blow my top on some things .
First off we as parents should not be having to fight insurance companys to get our kids covered . It is not as if they asked to have a certain illness which requires supplies and special meds etc ... I did not ask to be dxed at 16 with type 1 diabetes . I am now 49 which means I have lived half my life with diabetes . My parents had insurance and good insurance because my dad worked for pepsi cola whom at the time was an a 1 company to work for and they supplied great insurance mom and dad and I never had to worry about them not paying for anything . So could someone tell me where the hell the insurance companys get off not paying for something that a child needs ? me I could understand cause im an adult and they would prefer im sure for me just to go off and die somewhere and stop being a burden . The state of this countrys health care is a disaster to say the least . I have been denied insurance for the last five yrs since my insurance was dropped by bcbs . I have since had to pay for everything out of my pocket and folks that aint no easy task . I can only imagine what some people who have children are doing when they dont qualify for medical assistance programs which are a joke as well . When is our government going to realize that they need to revamp the insurance companys and start letting them know that dropping indiviuals with certain illnesses will no longer be tolerated ? I think there should be some kind of regulating of the health insurance companys . Okay thanks and I will get off my soap box now .

oh me oh my I have lift off on my tomatoe plants

Well after all this time my tomatoe plants finally have flowers yeah which means yes , you guessed it in a few wks I will have home grown tomatoes . I am happy to report that the topsy turvy does work and also planting tomatoes in containers works as well . I have been growing tomatoes for years and they need lots and lots of water when growing them in a container . Next yr I will probably try my hand at the strawberry and green pepper topsy turvys .I am also happy to report that all my house plants are happy as clams too . This is my favorite corner of our bedroom . all these plants were grown from tiny little seedlings and I am so proud. Okay Im done bragging now and I will go sit in my time out chair NOT !!! LOL !!! also im feeling much better and thank you all for your well wishes and remember be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Food poisoning has hit my household

Well we were supossed to go fishing this am but my hubby and I got hit with food poisoning this morning and I am just now feeling better after a struggle with the porcelin king and the all mighty pink liquid gold called pepto- bismol . we both ate sandwiches yesterday and about 12 hrs later bada bing bada bang it hit us . Hubby has been up all night so he is sleeping all day today and I have just gotten over it about mid day . Thank god Im over it and I hope that the d does not decide to strike up on me as well . Of course my bgs have been all over the place with the food poisoning . So needless to say I have had a strugle all day today .well my friends be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Rock formations and a blown day trip

yesterday while my husband had the day off we went riding around and I spotted this awesome rock formation on the side of the road . Of course I think I spoiled the trip yesterday by not wanting to take a 4 hr trip in a car . I cannot stand to be in a car that long and never could . I dont like driving for say two hrs and still not be where we are going. . My husband seems to like that sort of thing I dont . Anyways onto nicer things . I like rock formations like this and I also like mountains . I think mountains are mighty and strong just like God. Well anyways I hope you all have an awesome weekend and take care every one .

Oh The Heat Wave

Hi all thought you all would enjoy a nice photo of a beautiful sight . I found this sweet little sunflower peeking at me on my patio this morning . Yep grew this litlle thing from a discarded sun flower seed from my birds food . In the other photo is a great book that I am reading and it is titled " A three dog life and so far it is really good . I think anyone who likes dogs will like this book . I will save some more photos for tommorows post . I hope you all enjoy the views .

a Heat wave

Wow this heat is wrecking havoc with the bgs alot . I woke up at 228 and of course I have been fighting highs all am long . It seems like lately if Im not fighting a high Im fighting a low . I guess it is just one of those roller coaster things again and frankly I hate it and Im done and over it and little big d can go away forever . Yeah we wish right ? Im tired and done and over it . Oh wait I said that already LOL !!! If you dont laugh about it , you cry about it and I dont feel like crying at all so I would rather laugh as Im sure so would the rest of my blogger friends and readers . Last time I blogged I was in a crappy mood and it came out in my blog . Oh well guess some days are better than others .So now all day I will probably be fighting highs and keeping my head above water with that . Man Im so glad I dont have kids living at home that would have to deal with me right now . LOL !!! I dont like having to deal with people when I am fighting highs or lows . Oh well be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Okay folks no fire works but other pics

Well wow could my day suck any worse ? I woke up and started to finish off some letter and low and behold the fountain pen broke and ink every where and then we found out there were fireworks on July 3rd here not the 4th so we missed them last night . So after cleaning up the ink and the mess that was the top of my desk I decide that perhaps we should remove ourselves from this house . LOL !! So we went to the ohio caverns where it was a really nice 54 degrees down there and it was cold and damp and dark . At first I kind of got sick to my stomach I really did and then when that subsided , the tour guide says , Oh and for all of those who might wonder about our safety she told us that we were perfectly safe and that when the top of the cavern expierienced an earthquake they did not even feel it when they were in the caverns . She mentioned this safety part sort of toward the end of the tour and I was like dont you think she should have said something toward the begining of the tour about that . LOL !! But hey that is my story a day late and a dollar short . Well any ways I got some awesome pics of the caverns and picked up some awesome post cards too . I just wish ;my pen had not broke !! Im a letter writter darn it did this pen not know that ? Now i have to write with gel pens until I can afford to replace a fountain pen . Oh well that is a whole other post . take care everyone and be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

I cant wait to see the fireworks !!!

I like , many others will be watching the fireworks on sunday and also it is so great to know that I dont have to leave my house because I am on the 2nd floor , I will be able to see the works from my balcony and I am hoping it will be cool enough and no mosquitoes to sit out on the balcony for the duration of the works .At least I hope so anyway . Im hoping also to get some photos of the event as well . Im hoping my friends are doing well that live in Texas with this storm hitting them .Oh well as usual be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Well we heard today that the hubbys company is changing insurance companys yeah !!

Well all the employees heard today that the company my husband works for is changing insurance companys and we are totally stoked because the last company they had would
not cover me and my husband refused to give them any of our hard earned money because
if they are not going to cover the spouse then we dont want them . Now hopefully this new
company will cover me if they dont then we go again down the road of the un insured and believe
me folks when I say there are plenty of us (the uninsured ) out there . I know please dont come at me with how dangerous that is believe me i know but when you have a choice of keeping a roof over your head or an insurance card in your wallet , that roof comes first .
Anyways as always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

All is well and have been sick this whole past wknd

Man I was sick saturday and sunday and still not one hundred percent today and I am hoping that I will feel half way normal soon . my bgs have been all over the place and it is driving me crazy and cant get a lock or a hold on it . Does that make sense ? see I dont even know if Im making sense . LOL !! You know it is a bad day if you ask yourself if you are making sense ? LOL !! I starting feeling nauseous saturday when we returned home from yard saling and then it hit me like a ton of bricks and I hit the bed quicker than you could say jackie robinson . and was sick all day sunday too . stayed in the bed more than I was out of it . Today I kind of want to hit the bed too but am trying to put it off for as long as possible . Oh well so much for that thought I will now proceed to the bed and hope all is well with everyone . As always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Well we now have a clean bill of health

Well we just got a clean bill of health from the vet on saturday and Im so relieved . My husbands aunt is in an assisted living facility and we are going to visit her today and hope she feels better soon . Well I wish I had more to blog about but sadly I dont . anyway everyone have a wonderful sunday and take care .

As always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

I think this will be a busy weekend !!

Im going to the vet saturday and let them look at the little girl anyway just to make sure all is okay . Yes ,yes I am a worry wort . LOL !! I am reading a wonderful book called when madeline was young by jane hamilton . If you have never read any of her books i urge to do so . I think they are thought provoking and really good . I have several authors I like and several I dont but that is me . Im still working on a name for mims little pockets that she creates. Some people floor me with their creativity and I just am in awe of those people . me who does not have a creative bone in their body just stands in awe .The closest I come to creativity is making my own envies (envelopes ) out of magazine pages . so this weekend I have some books to mail and some grocery shopping to do and you name it , I probably have to do it this weekend oh well have a wonderful day and as always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

No surgery for doggie yeah !!

Well we found out that the doggy no longer has to have surgery the cyst dried up and fell off and there is just a small dot there now where it fell off . God must have know we really did not have the money for surgery and it would have put a burden on our credit card , although we would have done but now we dont have too Yeah !! God is good . I feel so blessed and so lucky . I also got some wonderful mail today but I will wait to post that some other day and those people who sent me that wonderful mail know who they are and Im very lucky to be blessed with such good friends who treat me better than my family. People I have never met but yet I feel as though I know them very well . I love all of my friends written friends and internet friends and blogger friends . I wish I could meet them all and get to know them in person but sadly I dont think that will ever happen , but you never know . Okay well enough as always be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

I have a wonderful herb and it works for no headaches

I know alot of us have migraines and I thought i would share this wonderful herb with all since someone shared it with me . It is called feverfew and it works like a charm I used to have migraines on a regular basis and now guess what after a month not one head ache much less a migraine and no migraines at all either . I m so relieved omg i wish I had known about this years ago and it would have made life so much easier on me . I hope those of you who suffer will give this a try . It is euphoria . Well as I always say be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

today is fathers day

I dont have a picture of my father . I really dont I have looked everywhere for one and still cannot find one . I will make sure to ask my brother if he has one when i hear from him again . So I was going to do a fathers day post and now with no picture that is a little bit impossible . I will tell you my father was a good guy but with nine kids his time was spread a little thin but I do remember him teaching us girls how to fly fish and how to fish period and how much peace it brought in my mind . I can remember that of the peace and the beautiful surroundings and sharing lunch and drinks and making a day of it .There is just something about eating food outside that makes it taste better . That is what I remember about my dad . I wish I had a picture . Well again be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Today is a better day

I want to thank Laura one of my d mom blog followers . She reminded me that since I have diabetes that at least I know how to control the pups dx . This is very true , this is the bright side and i was just telling someone lese the other day that God does not shut one door without opening ten more and God used Laura to open that door . God used Laura to make me see that he in his infinite wisdom take care of things and how this sweet dog could have gone to someone that could have put him in a shelter when they found out his diagnosis . But instead God chose me for this dog and his care . So as Amy said there you go d mom another work in progress . Oh my . be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Lab results are in

Well it seems that I was right in suspecting that the dog here my little boy as he is more commonly referred to ,is a diabetic . We got called with the results this am . I had been suspecting for a while since I know the signs in humans and figured that they could not be too far off from the dog right ? I was right and he does get like grumpy when he does not get enough food and then he gets shaky and he has to be warmed up with a blanket . you know I used to think my human kids were work these fur babies are proving to be quite a job themselves . Oh well be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

a decrease in my insulin needs

Okay this is really puzzling and someone else was talking about this on her blog and i got to thinking jeeze that same thing is happening to me . My insulin needs are decreasing and I cannot figure out why . Now is this the point where a rational person would say hey maybe your pancreas is kicking in again ? , hardly after this long . Or it seems like every summer we get out and do things and our need for insulin goes down . I dont know but it sure is puzzling . I have yet to get this figured out and then by the time I do I will be old and gray and ready for the rocker LOL !!! Geeze there are some days that I feel Im ready for the rocker now LOL !! I also just found out i have read 93 books since the start of this year which means I am way ahead of schedule on the 150 books goal I have set for myself . Im so glad I might even surpase that 150 thing and move onto 200. Who knows right ? Oh well not much else to blog about and remember be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider . Also please pray for my little doggie girl as she is scheduled for surgery on the 30th of june she has a benign growth that needs to be removed and Im not real comfortable about her being put under he being so small and all but it needs to be done . so please pray for the little gal

The Touchdown Jesus

Yes they are going to rebuild but they are going to make it bigger and wow I cannot imagine this statue any bigger but it is a landmark . It is located In Monroe Ohio which is right down the interstate from me . It was sad to hear it had burned down and then it was good to hear that they will rebuild yeah !!! now onto my patio garden , my tomatoes now have a flower bud on one of them and I could not be happier . The yarrow and the dwarf sunflower is doing wonderful . I will be sure to post pictures when the dwarf sunflowers finally decides to bloom . Now onto the tomatoes , I have never done tomatoes well in the ground , however in pots my tomatoes do beautifully . I think I can control the moisture and the bug problem better in pots than in the ground . I cannot wait to taste a fresh tomatoe off the plant that I grew . Anyways be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Nature in all her glory

Sadly this statue was struck by lightning last night and it crumbled to the ground and is now destroyed . I hope they rebuild it and I dont know how long that will take or if they will rebuild it . I have just been thinking wow this morning and how much money this must have cost built yrs ago and how much it will cost to replace it . It was made out of concrete or marble I do believe . Im not sure I have only seen it from the road . Oh well to all of those who commented that they love this I will keep you updated .

These are the moments I live for

These are the moments I live for . Watching these two remind me of the old disney story the fox and the hound . LOL !! This chihuahua slays me the way he is with the arnold (quaker parrot). Arnold seems to hop along as soon as kahlua starts moving . He absoloutly love Kahlua and vice versa . I wish all the world could get along like this . I am so very blessed to have two animals that really like each other like this and are so willing to forget that they are a different species . I dont think they care really .

Look at what I found on one of my adventures or so I like to call them

Well today Im not so good . Went on little ride this am and look at what I found .

Yes folks that is an actual water wheel the kind that mills use and in fact this is a mill that is still in operation and even has a restaraunt with it . I thought it was an excellent find and had I not felt ill we would have stayed and had lunch but it seems I get car sick when I ride in the car too long . But anyways we will go back soon and find this again and eat at that restaraunt because it had some wonderful smells coming from it . Well hope you enjoyed this blog post . Just remember be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Im so peed off at mr/ms anonymous !!

I just read a fellow d moms blog about someone who left a comment on her blog about how dare she criticize a medical instution who had previously treated her son . Well until you mr/ms anonymous deal with the big d yourself , (which god forbid you never have to ) you have no right to say anything about a disease you know nothing about obviously and you dont even have the guts to put a name to your comment . What are you hiding ? do you work for this institution ? sounds like it to me . Let me say this to you I think you are a chicken shit , spineless weaking who hides behind a computer screen ,who would not have the guts to say the stuff that you did in person . I dont pay much creedence to ppl who dont put their names with their comments . Like I say hiding . I dont and will not banty words with fools . Man my butt is on fire .

Okay changed my blog a little and loving the look even better

Well today is a better day and happy to wake up after a very rough night to say the least . My shoulder blade would not quit hurting last night . I finally fell asleep around 11 or maybe 12 and now Im totally worn to a frazzle . It seems like lately everything hurts lol. Could it be old age creeping up on me ? I would think I would have to be hit by a car to feel better just kidding of course would not wish that on anyone . I finally changed my blog page up a little , just a refresher if you will . something , anything to liven it up a little . Well Im currently reading blue water from a manette ansay and you all must read this book . It is absoloutly wonderful . Im still working toward the goal of reading 150 books for the year . I did 100 last yr and will have to have this accomplished by december 31 ,2010. Yes that is what I said 150 books it is not hard to do at all and if you put your mind to it you can acomplish anything . I am a true believer in faith and try , try and try again . Oh well folks that is about it for today and be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider . I find my last line very befitting since im close to amish country and did you know that the largest population of amish is in Ohio ? It is a fact look it up . Oh well enough rambling . Take care all .

well I knew it could not last

Well I had been in a state of euphoria with the big d and nope it did not last this am woke up with a whopping 220 before breakfast and I am like wth ? I did a recheck with another meter and sure enough yep a whopping 220. Okay then and a good shot of the most important liquid I have ever met in my life . So you see today will probably be one of those days when you have to check and re check all day long lol !!! not funny really just aggrivating . But I guess we all have those check and re check days with this disease . It stinks and Im really tired and want to go back to bed . Which i know i cant do have stuff to do today UGH !!!!

went out again and did some more exploring

Is this not beautiful and god in all his glory . I just love finding things like this .

The second pic is of the courthouse in downtown troy ohio . I love old courthouses because to me their architecture in my opinion cannot be matched these days at all and the quality and craftsmanship is beyond compare . I hope you enjoy viewing these as I did taking them .

Look at this it is amazing to me

When I look at this place I wonder how much it cost to build this thing and get it exactly right and wow then I think what an awesome piece of work . I definately think the guy or guys and or gals who built this thing must have had quality and pride in their work . Yes that is right , it is a church that has this wonderful jesus statue out in front of it . Tell me what you think .

what I did with my memorial day .

Hi folks this picture is of the entrance to the jungle jim store .I like the display but the store I could do without quite pricey. but the display was cute and had to get a pic of it .
The second photo that looks like a telephone booth is the restrooms and I thought those were kinda of odd and had never seen anything like those before . All in all I guess the trip was worth it cause of the photos I got . Oh well that is why I did with my memorial day .

Look at these creatures

Okay look at this that is right actual live deers caught in a field today . They started to run away and then I shouted oh please wait and stop and they did . My husband could not believe that they actually stopped and looked long enough for me to get a pic of them I was so thrilled to see these wonderful creatures running free in the country as God has intended . It did my heart good to see that and that made the trip worth while for me .

well some resolution

I want you all to know that I got some resolution on the problem I was having with meter and it is fixed and done for . also it got hot here yesterday and supposed to get hot today too oh well that is life one minute hot next cold . Okay here we go again complaining about the weather . also reading a fabulous book and wanted to see how it was different from the movie . It is called the magic of ordinary days and if that title is familiar , it is because it was a hallmark special that was on tv some time ago. then after that is dear john a recent movie and the book is by Nicholas sparks . I hope to enjoy both but will give a review after I am done with both . As always :be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider . For those of you who thought I stopped ending my blog entry for the day that way . God bless all take care .

Could this day get any worse ?

Man could this day start out worse ? the screen on my ultra select meter just busted and I cannot replace it and the meter company is closed on the wknds . crap !! okay i think maybe i should try to make the day a little better and just go on about my business . so I sent an email and the email came back with the wrong meter name that stinks !! so now i have to email or call on monday and hope they have not sent already . omg im acting like a drama queen of course . LOL !!! anyways I figure I could probably let this go for now . oh well that is my life today for today ? How is yours?

I have been reading so much again

Well I have picked up my reading habit again and I do think I will complete my goal of 150 books read by the end of the year . Oh I m so sorry I have not been blogging regularly but really nothing to blog about nothing spectactular has happened . Other than I am still working on my goal of the books read . I sure bless those people who are having to deal with this oil spill . reminds me of the valdes disaster that happened in Alaska twenty yrs ago yes i know some of my dear readers probably were not even born then . Oh on the diabetes front my sugars have been all over the place wonder if it could be related to the fact that I dont sleep well and that i have not been eating right , I guess Im going through one of those lazy phases . Oh well who knows anymore right ? seems like any little thing here throws it off as im sure it is with the rest of you . Yesterday was our first day of sun in five days yes that is right five days . I have had enough rain . Oh well sugars please get better and hope you all have a great day and awesome weekend .

Hi kids we went fresh veggie hunting and to no avail

Hey there all well yesterday I went to see if any of the farms were open yet and nope they are not wont be open until the first week in June . Oh things are so different when you move from a southern climate to a northern climate . Im so used to going to the flea market and just seeing all the fresh southern veggies there and picking them up and going home . Well it seems here in the northern climates no one has fresh veggies untill the first wk in June . Ugh !! Oh well I hope it is worth the wait . Well the weather is wonderful and beautiful . finally some sunshine after so much rain traveling over from Indianna . We get tons of rain from Indianna apparently . It is okay cause I like rain too .

I have not blogged for a while

I have not blogged for a while and the reason is because I have had nothing to blog about . Nothing spectacular has come in the mail . well there you have . I wish something would happen but only want good . Yes Ohio has left us in cold weather or rain . The old saying goes if you dont like the weather wait an hr it will change . anyways it is cold .

went exploring again

On saturday we went to explore some more of the world called ohio and wanted to get to trader joes as well . So stopped at buck eye lake state park and saw these canadian geese with their babies never have seen the babies before . Now my b i l has stated more than once that he thinks that these canadian geese are the meanest creatures put on this earth . Oh well I will have to reserve thoughts on that .

also went to the farm today and saw and petted the goats and the cows and they are so funny and so friendly . the cows tongues are like sand paper . I had fun . I did not take any pictures at the farm cause it was so cold .

oh the joys of exploring !!!

I love to go out and explore especially since I am new to where I live and loving it , even though it may not sound like it at times . Here are some photos . Have an awesome day .

yes that is right that is a tiny post office too cute looks like a mini post office to me lol !!!
and this old awesome looking courthouse . Gotta love the old buildings and the small town americas . Love it .

Why is it that the Post office tries to destroy your mail?

I would swear that I think that sometimes the post office tries to destroy your mail when you send it in anything but a regular envelope ? I sent some envies i made out of an old map to some friends and now they are telling me oh the envie was so pretty but it was destroyed in the process of mailing . Oh wow you have got to be kidding me so now cannot send anything in the mail except the plain ole envelope so I guess I will just have to find some way to get more creative with those then or try the magazine ones that I receive so often . Knowing my luck though the mags would also get clobbered LOL !!! okay so you guessed it today is my ranting and raving day for the good ole post office . I mean i dont want them to close or anything but why oh why cant they take a little more care of the precious cargo we entrust them with ? Okay Im done and yeah I know you all are probably thinking cant this girl find anything to be happy about ? Im sure everyone around me thinks the same thing . God bless and take care everyone and smile eventually I will be better and fine in a few hrs LOL !!!

wow it has been quite the day

This morning had frost and now we are at 70 . I guess it is true what they say dont like the weather wait an hr and it will change .Oh well it really has been a nice day but the bgs are not co operating . Do they ever ? No, not really and you all that have this crappy disease know what I am talkiing about and really who gave the big d the right to be a freaking drama queen ? just who do we have to thank for that right ? Im sure there would be a line to give good ole diabetes a smack . Im just really tired of it all and why oh why does it always have to raise its ugly head when we are so crappin tired . oh well all have a good one .

Oh well bs are up and down on the roller coaster again

Oh my the bgs are on the roller coaster again !! up one minute and down the next damn well these things ever get straightened out for any of us . The one bright moment in my week was when I found my dog in front of the windows sunning himself and he is all the mess LOL !!!

Notecard swap

Okay I am borrowing this idea from swap bot . Okay if anybody would like to do a note card swap then leave a comment down below with your email address so that your partner can get your address . this is just something fun to do . also if you would like let us say to include something fun also that you think your partner would like . I will be the one to assign partners . Let us say 5 new note cards with envies please . I thought this would be a fun idea and if you are in please leave email and your partner will contact you from there . I hope this to be fun and please if you sign up to do it then follow through . also do a intro email to your partner and see what they like , you should be able to do this just from talking to them or viewing their blog . good luck and i hope to see alot of you sign up .

Went exploring today

These pics are from some small towns around Springfield . I live in springfield and these are pics from vandalia and s. charleston and London . I hope you like them

something on the lighter side

this is an african violet that I grew from a cutting and somehow i got lucky and cross polinated it . It is white with a purple trim . I dont even know how I cross polinated it so dont ask me please !!

I love african violets and they have always been a passion of mine . I have even taught people how to grow them . I think they are beautiful house flowers . Oh well just something different today .

Pray for my friend dianna

I just heard from one of my friends dianna that her husband died suddenly over the weekend and now she has only been in her house 6 wks and she has to find a way to get back to her family in oregon. she currently lives in Mississippi . she is heartbroken and she is not sure what she will do about the house . My suggestion to her was to heck with the owner of the house which they were buying it from but yet the owner refuses to give her back any money I mean come on it has only been six weeks and her husband died suddenly . So I suggested she just sells what she can and the rest just dump it at goodwill and take the car and get it gassed and yes get back to family where she can get some help . I mean I know that if my husband died suddenly I would go back to my cousins house and she would be okay with that . To me family is everything . I will pray for her that she can sell what she can and fill the trunk with what she can and gas the car and get back home to where she can be surrounded by family . Please join me in praying for her and my heart is so heavy to hear such awful news today . God bless and take care everyone .

my cousin is going to be a grandma

I just heard that my cousin whom we lived with all this time is going to be a grandma !! I know she will be thrilled with that . I cannot imagine what she must be thinking and Im sure I will find out soon enough . I remember one time she told me that she did not want to be a grandma and I asked her if she had a choice in the matter and she started laughing and said no not really . I fear for this kid growing up in a wicked world that we have now .

Im off to explore

Im off to explore and the post office is on my list today and for all of you waiting for letters I promise they are in the mail . I might just come back with a slew of pics to bore you all with . this city is just so pretty with all the beautiful green grass and spring tulips . I see daffodils as well in folks yard and the tulips are just awesome as well . I have not seen daffs or tulips in years !!! Oh well take care and I am off for the day .

Just getting adjusted

Boy it really is hard to get adjusted when you move to a totally new city is it not ? Some things are very confusing and overwhelming like knowing where streets are and buildings are . I guess I have never considered myself lost anywhere . I think maybe Im just feeling a bit overwhelmed . everyday I am busy going at it on the internet looking for jobs and Im hoping something comes along soon . Oh well enough for now . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Now this is weather I can handle

Today it will hit 68 degrees at noon and maybe 75 by 2pm and then it goes cool at night now see these are temps I can handle . I really like it here and my dog needs to get adjusted to being quiet while handling the noise from the apt livers that dwell here . I am going to really like it here . This was the last move we are doing ourselves , we will hire someone to move us next time . we both got sick to our stomachs moving in and that tells me that we need to hire someone next time to do it for us . Now it is time to start looking at furniture cause we got rid of all our old stuff when we left . I found an awesome work desk that I am dying to have and get . I m used to paying big money for furniture and the prices here just floor me that they are so reasonable . LOL !! Or maybe I am still living florida prices . Im sure I will get used to all of this and am applying like crazy to jobs . I hope something happens soon in the way of a job for me . I need one if only pt to get me out of this house and some pocket money . Oh well be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

wow what a change !!

The weather here is certainly is different .I am still in long sleeves , and loving it . the first day moving in I was sweating and had to take my coat off of all things . Hey the cold felt good to me , LOL ! Oh well not much else to say and glad all is going well so far . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Im here in Ohio

Im here now and fine and hope all is well . I have everything done that needed to be done . Im really liking it here and boy the trip was horrendous . we left late because the lug nut on the car hauler was loose and that took thirty mins to fix and they were backed up at the check in counter to get our rental truck and it took us two hours to get the storage unit and the room we were staying in out at my cousins house . Then we got stuck in atlanta rush hour traffice and then cincinatti ohio traffic rush hour . I have never seen so many strip clubs in my whole life as I did on this trip . LOL !! I am so glad we got here in one piece and we are finally settled into our apt and we like it here and it is very quiet . No loud people and no noisemakers and we can actually sleep during the night .Oh well I am very happy to be here and hope you all are well and good . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

okay one more day until the big move

I am so excited and cant wait to see what awaits me on the other side . I went to Mass yesterday to say goodbye to my church friends and let them know my new address they said they would write but you know how that goes , they say they will but out of sight out of mind and that is okay with me . we just found out that our niece is also moving to cincinatti an hr from where we will be and we are thrilled about that especially when the holidays roll around we will all gather Im sure for great food and everything and of course our next official holiday is 4th of july and of course we will do the bbq cause hubby loves to bbq. Im just counting the hrs now I guess and it is so hard especially when you are all packed and ready to go . Oh well take care . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

3 days and counting down

Yes that is right three days until the big moving day and I am so thrilled and cant wait for the new things that await me . New town , new everything . For my husband it will be like going home for him because that is where he was born and his parents are buried which is like five mins from there and of course I will be honored to take care of their resting places because they raised such a great son and although I never got to meet these wonderful people who raised such an amazing creature as my husband . I m sure I would have adored these people and especially when I hear my husband talk about them and how they worked together and treated each other. I think it is a comfort to know that when we leave this earth there will be relatives to take care of our final resting places . Well now that I am all packed it is just a waiting game till the big day . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Well Im still packing

wow I am still packing and it it less than a week when I leave it is now down to five days and counting and yes I am x-ing the days off my calendar . I know I am shameless . I also am going to try and make this long distance trip and keep my diabetes under control . If not then I will do the best I can do . I guess you just never know how much you have until you start moving it all and getting organized and then it is all the organizing you have to do when you move in and decorate . I will have time to do it and will also be trying to interview for a job with a few i have set up . Im so thrilled it is a new begining and a fresh start and believe me when I say we need that because the last few years have been just agony . It all started when my husband lost his job and then we had to sell our house thank god the first looker bought the house and we were thrilled that we got out from under it and then we had to move to an apt and then we thought maybe moving to ky would give us a fresh start , nope no jobs there so we had to move back to florida with my cousin and living with family is no picnic nor it is comfy by anymeans . so this is a fresh start for us and we need it and we have some family up there but mostly through my hubbys family . I just know I will be at peace cause I have decided to make myself be at peace . Okay now back to packing and sorting and more packing .

Yes kids it is official

Yes we have an apt and it is a go for all and we will be moving to Springfield Ohio !!! I am so happy and getting out of florida before the inferno starts better known as summer here in florida . Im so happy and this will be the longest week of our lives but hey at least we have everything in place and it is official it is a go and I am so happy . I am going to be at peace finally and can go to the gym and the pool again when it gets warm up there . I hope you all have a wonderful evening . Im so happy . well be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Hey kids good news

Yes that is right hubby has found a store and we are waiting to hear on the apt and will hopefully know later on if we have the go ahead on the apt . Im so excited and yes we are leaving if everything is a go on Wed april 7th . Im so glad we are going to leave florida before the inferno (summer) begins !! a new place , a new begining and for my hubby it is returning home . Im so blessed and grateful that this has happened and of course it is because of all the prayers said by you my fellow readers . I hope to hear by this evening and I will come back and let everyone know .

Passing the purple hat on from my dear friend okami

1. Passing the Purple Hat to You
IN honor of women's history month and in memory of Erma Bombeck who lost her fight with cancer.
Pass this on to five women that you want watched over.
If you don't know five women to pass this on to, one will do just fine.

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's.'
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute.look at it and really see it . live it and never give it back.. STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.

If you don't mind, send this on to all the women you are grateful to have as friends.
Maybe we should all grab that purple hat earlier.
Please send this to five phenomenal women today in celebration of Beautiful Women's Month.
If you do, something good will happen--you will boost another woman's self esteem.
2. KEEP IT LIT!
IN MEMORY .. .. . . ....
These are the colours that represent the different cancers.



All you are asked to do is keep this circulating, even if it's to one more person, in memory of anyone you know who has been struck by cancer.
A Candle Loses Nothing by Lighting Another Candle.
Please Keep The Candle Going!

This one I do ask that you please send on.
By sending this on, you will think and realize how you've been blessed, up until now.
This is a disease which affects all families.. no one is exempt!

well maybe a little success

We have found a job and a housing source so we shall start the process all over again . I "d swear someone in corporate must have thought well if we make it hard for someone to transfer and make them wait month after month they wont want to transfer . well again we start the emails and the paperwork and the phone calls all over again . I hope it is all over with in a few wks and I hope everyone will pray for me .

I feel drug out and worn out

The last couple of nights I have not been able to sleep very well and I dont have a toddler in the house or a child at all for that matter and I so sympathize with you ladies that do . It seems as though our friendly neighborhood stray cat is in heat and she does seem to choose to caterwail up under our window in the dead of night . LOL !! so I think it is a combination of things , stressing over the move and wondering if it will ever happen , the cat screaming and a combination of things and so much paperwork and phone calls and emails . I thought two wks ago okay we are almost there nope ! the job that did come through we cannot find a place to live there so we have to turn that area down and now we have found a place to live in another area and hopefully we will get a return call and start the process all over again , the persistant emails and phone calls and faxes starts all over again !!! UGHH !!! I just dont know how much more we are expected to take , I pray everyday for this to hurry up and get going but to no avail .I have prayed for peace to take over my mind . I hope this will happen soon .Would you all out there pray for me that peace takes over my mind again . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider.

Be well aware Mr. President

Be well aware Mr. President I am not part of "your america " nor did I want this healthcare that you so well proclaim that "we need " well my dear sir I dont need your ideas of health care because in my opinion sir , this is just the first step to socialism .When election time comes around again for you I want you to know this " Be no doubt I will vote you out " I will do everything within my power to campaign against you and vote for the other guy or gal . I hope everyone in america does the same thing. I urge you who are reading my blog vote the democrats who voted for this bill in , vote them out . Let them know , you mess with the american people then we will show our appreciation where it most counts and that is in the voting booth . No mr president Im not part of your idea of america , Im just sick that my
father served proudly in the marine corp and my grandfather on the beaches of Normandy and this country is going to put me in jail and others like me who cannot afford health insurance . my family stepped up when this country asked for their service and now this country threatens to put people in jail for not having health insurance . for the first time in my life I am ashamed of my countrys leader . I will say no to you and your idea of america .
Be careful out there and negative ghost rider .

this sums it all up so well

The healthcare plan written by a committee whose chairman doesn’t understand it, pass by a Congress that hasn’t read it but exempts themselves from it, to be signed by a smoking president that also hasn’t read it, with funding administered by a treasury chief who didn’t pay his taxes, all to be overseen by a surgeon general who is obese, financed by a country that is broke. What the freak are we doing America?

I found the above on Melissas blog over at Melissasthoughts . Thanks because this sums it up so well . I could not have said it better myself . I seriously cannot afford healthcare I dont eat out, I dont waist money , I dont go to movies , I have not bought new clothes in over a year . We cannot even afford to purchase a house , we drive a 13 yr old car . I mean I live on a shoestring budget . Our rights have been stomped on and yes we are in a war , this health care is unconstiutional .

wow I might end up in jail

Yes folks that is right if we cannot afford to purchase health insurance through where we work no matter what the cost , we will be fined by the government and if we cant pay the fine we end up going to jail . Now in order for the government to subsidize your health you cannot receive medicaid , medicare or have insurance offered by your work . Even though you cannot afford your insurance through work and may end up living in your car they still want you to have health care . Is that freaking ridiculous or what ? also the government intends to raise your taxes in order to pay for all of this . and if you still dont have it they will put you in jail and yes that is right and anybody that doubts what I am saying read this bill . On an already burdened and faltering economy he wants to raise taxes . Also small businesses who have more than fifty employees you will be required to offer health insurance so mr or mrs 51st employee will have to be fired in order for you to not have insurance . Great Mr. Obama add more folks to the unemployment roles and to the homeless and to the already over burdened welfare system . Yeah that is a great move . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Are you ready for Obamacare ?

Do I or you really want the government in charge of our health care ? Im sorry but no I dont . I dont think the government can handle our heatlhcare very well . I just have to think that this will be a big mess and one from which we might not recover from . Oh well tell me what you think ?

Well folks update on the move

Well we had to send in more paperwork and emails and hopefully something will happen and we will hear something soon . we had to send in more emails and paperwork yesterday so I m thinking another two wks before anything happens really again . still living out of boxes and waiting and more waiting . Well when my husband talked to one of the managers yesterday he asked if we already had a place to live there and Im like what ? they want us to have a place to live before we have a set job up there ? that is like putting the cart before the horse . I mean why would someone have a place to live before they are sure they have a job ? this is how they think some of them as* backwards !!! That was only one of the managers we spoke to , the rest of them did not even ask but did tell us they did have jobs available so we needed to send an email and then his mgr here has to send an email so we shall see what happens . I hope to hear a definite answer in about two wks and then I hope we can find a place to live that will be our next problem . I forsee it . Oh well be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Is this not creative ?

I found this wonderful creative little thing in my mail box on Saturday . It is the latest gift from one of my pen pals . I wont use her name until I speak with her about using her name . I can tell just from this letter that she is uber creative if I can use that term . I wonder what her home must have inside it now because of this little creative gem . Oh well one can only wonder cant we ? well enough for now and be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

I love you guys you keep me going with my head held high

You my blogger friends keep me going with my head held high . I love all of you so much wish we could all get together and go out and just burn the joint down LOL !! Except for Joanne we would make sure she got shirley temples . I think I m in a much better mood because im done with the stress and I am to the point where I really dont care about the move . What is going to happen is going to happen I have no control over that and Im at peace with it . I think all of you have had something to do with this and I feel such an awesome peace now . I no longer feel the need to be stressed . Strange how a calm comes over you so quick sometimes huh ? Now watch this ugly thing called d rear its ugly head . I know it is coming and I do expect it , we as diabetics are used to living on the edge are we not ? I think all of us to a certain extent walk a tightrope and most of us make it through just fine . Okay enough rambling , be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Progress is very slow .

well we actually got an email from the dm today and he said that he had supposidly emailed it up there last wk and he was going to call today . excuse me ? you were supposed to have done this last wk already so another wk has gone by again and we are still sitting . Im like wth do these ppl do all day ? I need a job where I can just sit around and their main jobs are email, computer and telephone ? yes that is right folks our world of having a job consists of email , computer and telephone . I mean I have also been in contact with a few ppl who seem to be interested in my resume and would like to speak with me as soon as I am settled in there . Okay well great , this all depends on how fast some ppl move and it does not look like we are anywhere closer to a move date than we were last week and you will forgive me but I am so ready to pull my hair out . There is constant stress here and we are being asked every week when we are leaving ? Im so tired of hearing that . I for one will be the most glad to leave and leave all this stress behind . I hope I never get put in this position again .Oh well folks be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

well another week gone by and still no move date !!

Well another week has passed and still no move date and I really cannot understand how much bs I am supposed to tolerate . Maybe since today is monday we will hear something this week . I hate to think that this wk will go by too and still nothing . Im just really puzzled as to how someone can take more than 4 wks to get an email accomplised yes that is right folks i said an email !!! It took my hubbys gm to send an email !!! No wonder this company is in such upheaval . I mean come on who takes 4 wks to send an email ? so hopefully the email is there in another mgrs email and he is just waiting to make a phone call and have it all over with . I sure as heck hope so anyway cause at this point I am living out of boxes and not happy with that at all . at least my letter writing supplies are out and about and I am happy about that . Well folks please pray for me that something happens this week cause I dont know how much more of this mess I can take . Well enough for now . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

well so far so good

Well folks I am so happy to report that Im not sick at this point and that have not even had the first sniffle from my hubby . Yeah !!! also still nothing heard on the big move and it is getting to the point of ridiculous and we are at this point running out of options for apts and housing . When we first started looking there were numerous apts for rent and now our options are narrowing and for anyone who has ever had to do house hunting or apt hunting this is not funny , running out of options is not funny at any point . I think the dm where my husband works is trying to make himself look good and make a big production number out of it so he looks really good to the company . I myself will reserve my opinion of what i think of him . Honestly this thing is just a matter of a phone call I mean really what is so damned hard about picking up a phone and making a call . I honestly think this man wants to make himself look good at our exspense and frankly I am one who firmly believes in telling ppl where to stuff something LOL !!! I would just love to tell this guy where I would plant my foot right at this point . It has gotten to the point that my husband and I are arguing over this every night . I have told my husband that if I have to make everyones life a living hell to get something done I will do so and he knows i will

Im happy to say I am ahead on my letter writing

well thanks to jen over at indie fixx I am way ahead of my writing letter for the year I am good for the next thriteen days . I know for those of you giggling and saying this girl has no life you are right . LOL !! I guess you could call me a letter writing fool and you would be right but I also like alot of other things . I am in a book reading rut right now and I am still trying to get through the book that I blogged about a while ago called cane river . You can only read so much of it and then you have to put it down or things start running together . Im sure some of you that like to read know what I am talking about . well I am also happy to report that the hubby is getting well again and I have not gotten it so far so keep the fingers crossed and the prayers coming cause it is working very well .Well I guess that is enough for now and be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Im sorry to say that the husband is sick again !!

It never fails he comes home and he is always sick and has been the sickest since working at this place and it has got me to thinking if he has sick building illness . This place where he works is horibly filthy and one would think that when your business is dirty no one wants to carry anything home from there . My hubby carrys stuff home , germs and gets me sick which I in return carry on to someone else . It is a vicious cycle and after being so sick a meer few wks ago and taking two rounds of anti biotics Im not real anxious to get another illness besides the fact that we cannot afford it . I swear when is this vicious cycle going to end ? I tell you I am beside myself with all of the crap we have been going through . Im done do you hear me ? Im done with all of it !!! Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Okay my what an expierience I have had this am

Oh my what an expierience I have had on the phone this morning . well it all started when I found a staple in my blister packet of my immitrex which I take for my migraines .So thinking I was doing the right thing by reporting this to Glaxo smith kline who makes immitrex . Well their customer service rep let me know that they cannot send the meds back to me they have to instead send them to the clinic I go to . well the thing with this clinic is that they will deny ever receiving the meds from the company and I know because they have done this to me before . So when I explained this to the rep she said she was sorry but that was all they could do . But yet they want to send fed ex out here to take the pkg of meds away from me and I would have to wait five days for them to send it to the clinic . I told them no thank you and I will never ever again use a smith glaxo kline product again I will instead ask my dr to prescribe zomig from now on . also they could never get the clinic on the phone so if they cannot even answer their phone or return a phone call how in the hell do they expect them to keep up with a certain individuals meds ? This clinic has no leadership at all and once I move to Ohio I will have a job and I will get health insurance no matter the cost I dont care . I wish I had another option here but I dont . well any way enough of my venting , be carefull out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

The Pen Pal Project

There is a pen pal project going on over at jens blog indie fixx .com . If you like the idea of having some pen pals and the idea did provoke me and I have had over a dozen responses and In the last two days I have sent out ten letters now let us see who stays in touch . Just give it a try and a glance what can it hurt ? Well just would like to blog about it and see where it goes . This might end up being a project in and of itself on my blog .Oh well folks just thought I would like for someone to hop over there and take a look . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Really trying to keep myself busy

Well if you have been reading my previous blogs you know this week has not been easy or peaceful. That being said I have been trying to keep myself busy and these are the things that are keeping me busy . I love to read as you know and bought some books this week at the goodwill and you all know that I love the goodwill as well .well the following was a project and the other was a book I am finding fascinating . Here goes :

The bag is red and it is a market bag i styled it and crocheted it myself . I think I did a good job .

I am reading this book called cane rive by lalita tandemy and so far so good I really like the book .

Okay here goes the get to know me list

1.Yes I have a terminator personality and it does show at times but I can assure you only when needed does it get applied .
2. I was a strict mother and my kids have never been in jail or trouble of any kind .
3. I also like to make ppl feel better and laugh .
4. I was the class clown in mythology class much to Mrs . Willams dissapointment .
5. I hate to loose at scrabble .
6. I love italian food but cant hack pizza
7. I love to read am totally the book worm
8. I wont drive a stick shift car too much trouble and aggitation
9. No one drives fast enough for me .
10 . I dislike ppl who pass a school bus when the flags are out
11. i just hate ppl who are rude and dont have empathy or compassion for other ppl .
12. I am a catholic and have worshiped in different churches at different paths in my life
13. I have always hated clowns
14. I dislike ppl who think that they are better than anyone else have they ever heard but for the grace of god go I ?
15. I once had a co worker tell me that all homeless ppl are homeless because they want to be I wanted to kick her in the bread basket so badly
16. I believe in donating to the good will , if I cant use it someone else can
17. I dont like the colors of orange and purple
18 . My signature color is magenta not red like alot of ppl say , no magenta it is a much deeper shade of red.
19. I dye the color of my hair when ever it suits me .
20.I have read one hundred books last yr this yr I intend to read one hundred and fifty yeah !!!
Okay there you have it and I hope I entertained you as well .

They have changed the date again !!!

Im really getting sick of my husbands work related issues and now to beat all they have changed the date again on us and frankly I told my husband it is going to get to the point that after all this stress I am going to really use sailor language on someone and they really wont like it . The stress these ppl are causing cause they dont know if they want to wind their watch or scratch their butt . I mean really these ppl are the worst and they have some ppl in charge that have no business being in charge . I am a firm believer in the fact that if you have kind caring considerate ppl in charge your business will flourish and you will have repeat customers . I think I and all of you out there know when we buy something major we remember the persons attitude who sold it to us , do we not ? I mean especially if that person is a snotty person you will remember that .
I am really just so pissed right now because they keep sitting on the pot and wondering if they want to wipe or not . LOL !! I guess Im getting to the point where i have really had it with ppl . Oh well be carefull out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

6 wks and counting

Im so excited I am six weeks out and counting down for my move . Im just so thrilled and excited . I wish i was closer but hey you cant have everything right ? I know you cant . Im just tickeled pink and some of you have known that I have been wanting to do this for quite some time so the big m day is approaching . I will wave at some of you while going through your state and some of you I will blow a kiss on the wind on the way up :) LOL !! Oh well just thought I would let everyone know . If it looks like it is going to be longer I will let everyone know so just keep writing and sending letters to the current addy and I will let you all know my new addy when I know it . Just keep your fingers crossed and prayers said .

Okay well there has been much discussion and it has me thinking

I see alot of us discussing the insulin we use . the only think I find hard about my insulin is the fact that I have to inject fifteen mins before eating and that is not always convient when eating out . but i also read that you can inject after you eat . I find though that if I inject after I eat I dont quite get the absorption that I do when I inject before I eat ? Do any of you notice this as a trend with humalog ? if so please let me know cause this has been weighing on my mind for some time . Be careful out there among them english and negative ghost rider .

Oh my god did Oprah screw it up or what ?

I know this is a popular post here today . Okay so I watched for about ten mins and kept tuning in and out of it . I was so dissapointed in this show to say the least and after about ten mins with my head ready to explode and jumping up and down on the floor and screaming at the tv NO NO NO dr oz you really dont know what you are talking about !!! I was not born with this dreaded disease I was dxed at 16 and am now 49 and guess what Im still not blind , I have both my feet hands and toes !!! My heart is in excellent shape and I am not in the ground . according to dr oz I should be in the grave already . Im so peed Im sorry but it just some more addage for the insurance companys to use to exclude us or raise our insurance rates . And Oprah may I say I do expect the ignorance out of you but dr oz , you as a member of the medical community you have a responsibilty to stop perpetuating myths and stop the ignorance and you my sir added to it yesterday . Believe me if you were in front of me I would have some choice words for you my dear sir .I m sorry to be venting like this but is anyone in the d community as peed as I am about this ? I know joanne is upset as well over at death of a pancreas . I just wish someone in the medical community would speak like they have some sense . Im done with this and I dont worship at the altar of Oprah or dr oz . Be carefull out there among them english and negative ghost rider .